pleasant memories..

Was watching these pics from my last few days at CC.. I knew I’d miss my team! Got my hands on the HOT office camera n made memories with my team and some friends! For a change I was glad we were stayin’ back after work hours! 😀

And so, here it is.. this was my 2nd last evenin’ at Creative Chaos!

Miss you guys!

My Team: <Muhammad Furqan, Muhammad Faizan AnwerAlishah Chagani>
Other Colleagues/friends: <Zair, Fursid, Imran Bhai>

Sometimes.. i make sense to only.. ‘me’…………. :)

Maybe it’s got somethin’ to do with spiritualism… urm.. I dunno.. well it does seem like there’s a connection… It did seem ambiguous when the mind dismissed the idea with the possible inference; smiling and convincing yourself that things’re not TOO bad when in fact they aren’t TOO great, wouldn’t that be a case of 1st degree deception? eeeeee!! sounds almost like a murder! And so I shook my head to let go of the negative thought!

I couldn’t help laughing when a friend pointed why it isn’t possible to smile all the time.. the jaw would start hurting for one, another one pointed out! 😛 well, the point could be taken into consideration.

It was one of those days when I was lost and blue. Everything seemed normal otherwise.. with the exception of something.. important missing.. Only the kids’ excited chitter chatter in the playground kept me from breaking up..

I lay down in the dark with my eyes closed; sweet memories rushing in all at once.. yanked harshly almost immediately by realizations of the loneliness that I felt then… I must admit it took a hell lot of effort to pull in thoughts of better times.. my heart winning out on all the reasonings little by little, as I felt my mind surrendering in vain.. and that’s when I noticed that my lips had automatically curved into a smile..

That a smile does increase a couple of ounces on the amount of calmness contained within one… was all I could conclude with by the time I was all set to make my way back home..
and it sure does help not to let anger take over a bad feelin’ n make things worse..

Instead, the realization of accepting things, people, their natures, their mood swings, circumstances.. n in a nutshell, the world in its entirety… just as it is… comes to life… as time passes… at a *very* slow pace…

well I guess… 🙂

n yeah, the ticks go on…

🙂

Friday…

Not too much of a TGIF feelin’ today..

Here’s the friday song that was playin’ the entire day at my end:

Today is friday, it is my day to do what i want | Mama can tell me that i’m goin nowhere, i’m just a prisoner of my fate | Would you come along, bring me in | Would you come along, bring me in… Bring me in | Today is friday, it is my day to disappear | To kings and queens and make-believe and the demons in my head | Would you come along, bring me in | Would you come along, bring me in… Bring me in | If you were around in my sleep | If you could be found in my sleep | Give me a sign | Give me a sign… agar tum hotay khuabon main | agar tum mil jaao khuabon main | isharaaa dou… isharaaa dou! | Today is friday, it is my day to live a simple life | Put on my make-up, dress up in color | Maybe you might see me down here | Could you come along, bring me in | Would you come along, bring me in… Bring me in | If you were around in my sleep | If you could be found in my sleep | Give me a sign | Give me a sign… agar tum hotay khuabon main | agar tum mil jaao khuabon main | isharaaa dou | isharaaa dou! | Maybe we’ll walk into the rain | To ease what’s on my mind- You both hand in hand | And you’re living your life over again | Today is friday it is my day to do what i want | Mama can tell me i’m goin nowhere | I’m just a prisoner of my fate | Would you come along, bring me in | Could you come along, bring me in | Bring me in | If you were around in my sleep | If you could be found in my sleep | Give me a sign | Give me a sign… agar tum hotay khuabon main | agar tum mil jaao khuabon main | isharaaa dou | isharaaa dou! | Today is friday, it is my day to live a simple life | Put on my make-up, dress up in color | Maybe you might see me down here | Can you come along, bring me in | Will you come along, bring me in… Bring me in……………

 

Have a great weekend! Enjoy the song!

Friday- Goldspot

If you’re lost, you can look, and you will find me– Time after time…

This is one of my favorite songs… I would like to dedicate it…….

 

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion–
Is nothing new
Flashback–to warm nights–
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories,
Time after–

Sometimes you picture me–
I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me, I can’t hear
What you have said–
Then you say– go slow–
I’ve fallen behind–
The second hand unwinds

If you’re lost you can look, and you will find me
Time after time…

If you fall I will catch you, I’ll be waiting..
Time after time

If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting
Time after time…
Time after time…

After your picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows–I’m wondering
If you’re okay
and you say go slow..
I’ve fallen behind
The drum beats out of time–

If you’re lost you can look, and you will find me– Time after time…
If you fall I will catch you, I’ll be waiting.. Time after time…

If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting… Time after time

Time after time…

Time after time…

29!

Okay! I feel like cheering myself up! That’s not a huge figure- I have been telling myself that for the past week now! So what if the realization makes me wince a lil’ in disgust that I’d be 3 decades old next year! Anyway, guess I’ll just live the moments and take it one day at a time and all that crap as I’ve heard ‘em say..

The only good thing ’bout the whole deal is.. that I don’t feel my age! 😀 so I guess it ain’t that huge an issue after all!

Yayyy!

Happy Birthday to me! 🙂

<alhamdolillah!>

dear BB…

Bibi..

Razia as most elders called her in the family for the initial decade since I was born, and after that, she’s been the eldest member of our family alive mashAllah.
At school, students and teachers addressed her as Ms. Azeem. And I have seen her name on very old papers as Mehboob Unnisa Begum.

To the rest of the world, she’s known as.. Bibi..

Born in the early 1920’s in the peaceful, one of the most ethnic cities of India, Hyderabad Deccan, Bibi was the eldest born in a family of 4 sisters and 3 brothers. From our late conversations and the bedtime stories that we used to love as kids, and still ask her about sometimes even now, what I have gathered about her personality is that she was a much disciplined child. At the same time, being the first born, she had the natural aura of authority with a hilarious combination of emotion and sensitivity towards her family in such a rich, strong bond that is still evident when you discuss “family” with her.

She was not what we would generally refer to as a brat 🙂 as spoilt as she was, even her father and grandfather made sure to do so in the most civilized manner. I find that very charming.

I have never been as close to Bibi as I was to nanijan; and I don’t find it fair to compare my two grand mothers. As much as Bibi’s tantrums raised the level of rage in me on a number of occasions, I love the woman, and not just because she’s my grandmother. I respect her for who she is; especially because I know how she single-handedly managed the situations she has come across in her life.

She joined St.Joseph’s Convent High School as a 6th grade Urdu teacher on July 01, 1953 after migrating to Pakistan- she taught there for a good 40+ years mashAllah! Though she was strict, I have seen the love and respect her students had for her.

Well.. they say that the presence of such elder people in your house keeps the flow of blessings running.. May Allah bless her.

Happy Birthday Bibi! 🙂
I know you don’t remember much of it, but I do miss the purana qissaz you used to tell us on weekend nights.. With Love, sara..

p.s. photo credits: Rumana Husain

It has got to do with the choices we make..

My reading habits are not how they used to be like about a decade ago and before that. I miss that. And now, even when I do get time, I have become a little selective- to be precise, I must clear out the point though that I am not 100% of a recluse- alhamdolillah for that! & otherwise, I simply don’t get time. And the only part I do get is which I prefer to just laze around or be with *my people*.

One of the few things I do read whenever I get a chance include a story in which I’ve contributed a bit- it’s my favorite one since we started workin on it- which I secretly hope to share with my daughter someday 😉 and a couple of blogs I follow, besides the reading I have to do to keep myself a little up to date with what’s going around in the Technical world- n by the way, I’m definitely not that brainy- though I wish I were at times! That’s ok I guess 🙂

Based on an incident I came across, I got a chance to ponder over, as my topic says, “The Choices We Make,” well I believe that a lot depends on it! Our ability to decide.

The chances that Allah ta’Alah grants us with- well I gave this more thought than I can put down on paper, and taking up my khala’s advice, I would certainly not put down references from the Holy Book & scriptures to support my beliefs. The final conclusion, that I had also at an earlier stage figured and shall even now stick to, is that there are 2 paths shown to us. Putting it in simple words, ONE that leads to the right, a path which would lead us where Allah would shower His abundant blessings upon us, and the other, which leads to a way that would displease Allah. And I undoubtedly believe that Allah is the All-Knowing, and has power over everything! He has planned everything for us humans, but time and again, He as His right is, tests us- our faith. There are 2 kinds of obstacles that one of my aunts taught me about.

The one kind of difficulty that a man has to face is that test from Allah- in which he gets a chance to repent for the sins that he was involved in. Such is the test in which we get a chance to turn towards Him for mercy and make Dua and repent for our sins. And He the Ever- Merciful, forgives.

The second kind of test from Allah include those kinds of difficulties in which Allah Subhanahu-Wa’Ta’Alaah Blesses the human with a chance to heighten the level of Honor (urdu: darjaat buland karne).

In simple, we must say Alhamdolillah even when we are struck with tough times and have to deal with the most difficult of situations.

And finally, I have decided to come back to my topic 🙂

There are things that have been predestined by Allah subhanahu wa ta’Alaah. Like the time of our birth and when we shall exit this world; also whom and when we shall marry are amongst decisions that have been preordained by the Almighty. We are humans. To error is human. When we are confident enough to say it out loud that we are strong individuals, we must also be strong enough to admit when we sin. And instead of mourning all over it, we need to repent. Because sooner or later, what we would realize is, that repentence is the only way. And actually, the first step to move towards the Almighty. We take that first step, and He embraces us half way through! The Ever- Merciful, All- Powerful Lord of the exalted throne does give us a chance. It is therefore our duty to read the scriptures and not just that, it is also obligatory upon us as Muslims to synchronize our lives accordingly and comply with what is written in the Quran. The word of Allah.

I hope to complete my efforts on discovering the purpose of man’s existence someday. That’s a brave thing to say, why so? Because, I am only a beginner. And of the little I have read, what I have understood is something I can’t explain as yet, but I shall share as soon as I have better understanding on the subject. InshaAllah!

One of the finest and very very important and valuable piece of blessing that the Humankind has been bestowed upon by Allah is His word! The Quran. Allah (SWT) has sent the Quran to us as a guide. In simple words, this guide teaches us about the right and wrong.

Why do we need to learn the right and wrong? Because, with all that has been written in our destiny by Allah, He has given us the free will to decide. To make a choice. Not just like that. He has given us the right to make decisions based on the right and the wrong which is further elaborated upon in various verses in the Quran.

Why has Allah explained that? Why has Allah warned those who perform evil deeds and disobey Him and choose the incorrect path from doing so? So that they do not complain on the day of resurrection to Allah, for not being warned beforehand. Allah is the All- Knower, the most Beneficent and the most Merciful! He would not punish anyone except after caution. And He has warned us in the Quran about the right and the wrong, very clearly.

As I said.. it all has to do with the choices we make..

May Allah subhanahu wa ta’Alaah guide us all.. towards the path of the Al-Muttaqun.
And Allah knows best!

Assalamoalikum! 🙂