dear BB…


Razia as most elders called her in the family for the initial decade since I was born, and after that, she’s been the eldest member of our family alive mashAllah.
At school, students and teachers addressed her as Ms. Azeem. And I have seen her name on very old papers as Mehboob Unnisa Begum.

To the rest of the world, she’s known as.. Bibi..

Born in the early 1920’s in the peaceful, one of the most ethnic cities of India, Hyderabad Deccan, Bibi was the eldest born in a family of 4 sisters and 3 brothers. From our late conversations and the bedtime stories that we used to love as kids, and still ask her about sometimes even now, what I have gathered about her personality is that she was a much disciplined child. At the same time, being the first born, she had the natural aura of authority with a hilarious combination of emotion and sensitivity towards her family in such a rich, strong bond that is still evident when you discuss “family” with her.

She was not what we would generally refer to as a brat 🙂 as spoilt as she was, even her father and grandfather made sure to do so in the most civilized manner. I find that very charming.

I have never been as close to Bibi as I was to nanijan; and I don’t find it fair to compare my two grand mothers. As much as Bibi’s tantrums raised the level of rage in me on a number of occasions, I love the woman, and not just because she’s my grandmother. I respect her for who she is; especially because I know how she single-handedly managed the situations she has come across in her life.

She joined St.Joseph’s Convent High School as a 6th grade Urdu teacher on July 01, 1953 after migrating to Pakistan- she taught there for a good 40+ years mashAllah! Though she was strict, I have seen the love and respect her students had for her.

Well.. they say that the presence of such elder people in your house keeps the flow of blessings running.. May Allah bless her.

Happy Birthday Bibi! 🙂
I know you don’t remember much of it, but I do miss the purana qissaz you used to tell us on weekend nights.. With Love, sara..

p.s. photo credits: Rumana Husain


Hazrat Ibn Umar (radhiyallahu anhu) reports that Rasullullah(sallallahu alaiyhi wassallam) said: “When you meet a Hajji (on his way home) then greet him, shake hands with him and ask him to beg forgiveness of Allah on your behalf before he enters his home, for his prayer for forgiveness is accepted since he is forgiven by Allah for his sins.”

Hajj Mubarak to all the Hajis across the globe! Warm regards, Sara 🙂

It has got to do with the choices we make..

My reading habits are not how they used to be like about a decade ago and before that. I miss that. And now, even when I do get time, I have become a little selective- to be precise, I must clear out the point though that I am not 100% of a recluse- alhamdolillah for that! & otherwise, I simply don’t get time. And the only part I do get is which I prefer to just laze around or be with *my people*.

One of the few things I do read whenever I get a chance include a story in which I’ve contributed a bit- it’s my favorite one since we started workin on it- which I secretly hope to share with my daughter someday 😉 and a couple of blogs I follow, besides the reading I have to do to keep myself a little up to date with what’s going around in the Technical world- n by the way, I’m definitely not that brainy- though I wish I were at times! That’s ok I guess 🙂

Based on an incident I came across, I got a chance to ponder over, as my topic says, “The Choices We Make,” well I believe that a lot depends on it! Our ability to decide.

The chances that Allah ta’Alah grants us with- well I gave this more thought than I can put down on paper, and taking up my khala’s advice, I would certainly not put down references from the Holy Book & scriptures to support my beliefs. The final conclusion, that I had also at an earlier stage figured and shall even now stick to, is that there are 2 paths shown to us. Putting it in simple words, ONE that leads to the right, a path which would lead us where Allah would shower His abundant blessings upon us, and the other, which leads to a way that would displease Allah. And I undoubtedly believe that Allah is the All-Knowing, and has power over everything! He has planned everything for us humans, but time and again, He as His right is, tests us- our faith. There are 2 kinds of obstacles that one of my aunts taught me about.

The one kind of difficulty that a man has to face is that test from Allah- in which he gets a chance to repent for the sins that he was involved in. Such is the test in which we get a chance to turn towards Him for mercy and make Dua and repent for our sins. And He the Ever- Merciful, forgives.

The second kind of test from Allah include those kinds of difficulties in which Allah Subhanahu-Wa’Ta’Alaah Blesses the human with a chance to heighten the level of Honor (urdu: darjaat buland karne).

In simple, we must say Alhamdolillah even when we are struck with tough times and have to deal with the most difficult of situations.

And finally, I have decided to come back to my topic 🙂

There are things that have been predestined by Allah subhanahu wa ta’Alaah. Like the time of our birth and when we shall exit this world; also whom and when we shall marry are amongst decisions that have been preordained by the Almighty. We are humans. To error is human. When we are confident enough to say it out loud that we are strong individuals, we must also be strong enough to admit when we sin. And instead of mourning all over it, we need to repent. Because sooner or later, what we would realize is, that repentence is the only way. And actually, the first step to move towards the Almighty. We take that first step, and He embraces us half way through! The Ever- Merciful, All- Powerful Lord of the exalted throne does give us a chance. It is therefore our duty to read the scriptures and not just that, it is also obligatory upon us as Muslims to synchronize our lives accordingly and comply with what is written in the Quran. The word of Allah.

I hope to complete my efforts on discovering the purpose of man’s existence someday. That’s a brave thing to say, why so? Because, I am only a beginner. And of the little I have read, what I have understood is something I can’t explain as yet, but I shall share as soon as I have better understanding on the subject. InshaAllah!

One of the finest and very very important and valuable piece of blessing that the Humankind has been bestowed upon by Allah is His word! The Quran. Allah (SWT) has sent the Quran to us as a guide. In simple words, this guide teaches us about the right and wrong.

Why do we need to learn the right and wrong? Because, with all that has been written in our destiny by Allah, He has given us the free will to decide. To make a choice. Not just like that. He has given us the right to make decisions based on the right and the wrong which is further elaborated upon in various verses in the Quran.

Why has Allah explained that? Why has Allah warned those who perform evil deeds and disobey Him and choose the incorrect path from doing so? So that they do not complain on the day of resurrection to Allah, for not being warned beforehand. Allah is the All- Knower, the most Beneficent and the most Merciful! He would not punish anyone except after caution. And He has warned us in the Quran about the right and the wrong, very clearly.

As I said.. it all has to do with the choices we make..

May Allah subhanahu wa ta’Alaah guide us all.. towards the path of the Al-Muttaqun.
And Allah knows best!

Assalamoalikum! 🙂

Love.. – by Neil Gaiman

A rather interesting description of Love that I came across a few years back 🙂 it’s got to be a part of my virtual world ofcourse!


Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. not just in the mind. It’s a soul hurt, a body hurt, a real gets inside you and rips you apart pain. I hate love!


November 05, 2010! :)

Have been on the Blogger for a while.. but have always preferred to write my heart out on diaries.. this time, after the pages on my last diary ended, i just opened up my account and realized.. how much unused space I’ve been wasting in my virtual world! So here goes, my first post! And what’s better than starting with a dua for Team Pakistan!

No matter what, I hope Pakistan wins today! Well, not going to raise my hopes too high.. Cricket is after- all an extremely unpredictable game 😉 All the best BOYS in GREEN!

Pakistan Zindabad!

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